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Longing has long since ceased to encompass me.   Yearning no longer possesses me.   What fills me now is hopelessness.   Nothing I do or say can change who you’re becoming.   Nothing I do or say can mold you into the person I know you could be.   You’re unrecognizable now, oblivious to how completely they have changed everything I loved about you.   When we’re alone though, I know you’re still there. Traces of your presence surround me and stir up the forms of longing I felt so long ago.   When you’re around them though, I don’t exist, swallowed by a different crowd, one that doesn’t fit

 I was searching in my attic for an old soccer ball, one that would be a gift for my ever-growing nephew, that is if I could find it.  That’s when I found you, or should I saw re-discovered you.  It was just a two page program trucked in between some old memorabilia stuff, I had meant to go through and trash ages ago.  As I picked up the piece of paper your eyes were smiling up at me a crease running over your mouth from years of being folded.  Perched over your guitar, your favorite place more than likely, your smirk looked as if you had a secret, one you couldn’t share, or wouldn’t share. I hadn’t thought of you like t